14. What Could Possibly Go Wrong Today?

Saturday, December 8, 2012

I was up pretty late Friday night writing. I slept until about 9 A.M.  When I got up I was wrestling with whether I should go out to the house to see him today.  After the fiasco of last night I wasn't sure I wanted to put myself through that.  I thought about it for awhile.  Finally the guilt took over.  I had made a promise.  I had told him I would be there by noon and we could go to lunch.  If I didn't keep my promise I knew he would call me a liar.  I am pretty used to being called that now.

13. (Not So) Happy 17th Anniversary

Friday, December 7, 2012

I went to bed at 11 P.M. last night.  Most people would find this 'normal' and in some cases even late. It is about three hours early for me.  My sleeping habits were rearranged over the years.  Mark used to fall asleep no later then 9 P.M. on the couch.  I would stay in my office and do Facebook, Twitter and read.  About 11 P.M. I knew it was safe to go out to watch my recorded shows.  Of course, Mark always woke up anyway, crack open a beer and begin to ridicule what I was watching.  We would argue and he'd finally go to bed. 

12. Stupid Boy - The Psychiatrist Didn't Go So Well...

"So what made you think you could take a life

And just push it, push it around?

I guess to build yourself up so high

You had to take her and break her down..."

Thursday, December 6, 2012 

I didn't sleep well last night.  I tossed and turned most of the night.  I guess the stress of knowing I had to see Mark the next day really got to me.  On the one hand I was excited as I wanted to believe the psychiatrist can help him - make him 'better' - on the other hand, I have to be near him.

11. Love Is Such A Manic Thing

I talked to Mark last night when I got home from work.  He told me he is bidding on a watch on ebay.  He said the bid is at $100 right now.  I told him please do NOT bid any more then that.  The fact is, he doesn't need a watch at all.

He is spending money left and right.  He has been taking money out of our checking account. Thank God he told me last night otherwise our house payment would have bounced.

10. He Murdered My Parrot

He murdered my 8 year old parrot.

9. Let's Make This A Family Event!

It seems Mark is "friending" all of Chris's family in Australia and talking to as many people as he can about our situation.  I'd say that is great, except he is manic and not seeing reality.

My sister emailed me their Facebook Conversation from Saturday in to Sunday:

Saturday, December 1, 2012

3:20pm

8. Free..But NOW What?

Saturday, December 1

I received a text message from Dixie at 10:00 in the morning:

DIANA... DO NOT GO HOME... Mark is NOT OK!

Then on Facebook she said this:

He KILLED your bird. He admitted it.

She then forwarded me their Facebook Chat: