Life with an alcoholic, addict, bi-polar / psychotic (ex) spouse. Dealing with the manic, erratic, terrifying behavior, the sadness and decisions to be made to keep sane. My decision was to leave before he completely lost his mind.
Saturday, March 1, 2014
157. Being Alone Does Not Mean You're Lonely
Tonight I went out to have dinner all by myself. You are probably thinking to yourself, "So what? Big deal!" It was a big deal to me. I have been 'single' for nearly a year and a half. In all of that time, and in fact for my entire life, I have never gone out to eat alone. If I didn't have someone else to go eat with me I would just get take out and eat at home. I just had the thought that if I was sitting there all alone that people would pity me. So, I just never did it to save myself from my perceived possible humiliation.
Today I ran all over the place. I got my hair done, got my car detailed and then went and had my car tuned up. By the end of the day I was starving. I grabbed my phone to order take out while waiting for my car to be finished. But, I changed my mind.
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