156. My Criminal Deposition or How To Fall Apart in One Hour

I couldn't sleep last night.  I tossed and turned then finally took Zquil to try to get some sleep.  I knew today was my deposition with the public defender - "his attorney."  I wish I could say I was very well prepared for this.  I have had a year of counseling to think about this and the trial. I hoped I was prepared.  I'm sad to say that emotionally I wasn't.

All day long at work all I could think about was that at 3:30 PM I had to be at the courthouse and "his attorney" would be questioning me about all that has happened.  I talked to Dixie on Facebook earlier today.  She said, "..just answer the question... don't elaborate don't add anything... just answer the specific question asked."  When I got to the courthouse my victims advocate, Susan, told me the same thing Dixie said.  She said keep your answers short and simple.  That seemed like a simple thing to do.  It just was easier said then done.

155. Please Tell Me That All Men Aren't Pigs?

I'm at work.  I decided to write this down while I am still very perturbed.  As you may, or may not know, I am the co-owner in a small security products / locksmith company with Mark.  I have been running the company with my son-in-law since I left Mark in November of 2012 since Mark abandon the company.

Our store is in a small town on Singer Island which is part of West Palm Beach.  Many of us on the island know each other.  I especially know the store owners and police on the island as they have used our company since its start 30 years ago.  Today one of the police officers from the Town of Palm Beach shores came in to get some keys made.

154. In The Arms of The Angels

My best childhood friend's daughter passed away on my birthday about a week ago.  It's not only a tragedy that she died from illness which they couldn't diagnose, but that she left two young children behind.

And, as self centered as this may sound, why did it have to be on my birthday?  My friend will never be OK with that day again.

Rest in Peace sweet Jenny.  You are in the arms of the angels now.

153. Happy Birthday to Me

Yeah, it's that time of year again. Today is my 54th birthday.  I just can't believe I'm 54.  In my mind I'm not a day over 25.  I guess the saying "you're only as old as you feel" is really true.  What is ever stranger is the fact when I actually left home I was 52.  It's only been a year and 3 months since I left home, but the way my birthday falls made me 2 years older.

My attorney sent a settlement proposal to him at the jail today for the divorce.  No one really thinks he will agree to any of it, but I have to at least try.  I want this divorce final.  He's going to prison.  The trial is still on as of now for March 10th.  I can only hope he will be sane enough to realize he is getting a good settlement under the circumstances.  I guess we'll see.