156. My Criminal Deposition or How To Fall Apart in One Hour

I couldn't sleep last night.  I tossed and turned then finally took Zquil to try to get some sleep.  I knew today was my deposition with the public defender - "his attorney."  I wish I could say I was very well prepared for this.  I have had a year of counseling to think about this and the trial. I hoped I was prepared.  I'm sad to say that emotionally I wasn't.

All day long at work all I could think about was that at 3:30 PM I had to be at the courthouse and "his attorney" would be questioning me about all that has happened.  I talked to Dixie on Facebook earlier today.  She said, "..just answer the question... don't elaborate don't add anything... just answer the specific question asked."  When I got to the courthouse my victims advocate, Susan, told me the same thing Dixie said.  She said keep your answers short and simple.  That seemed like a simple thing to do.  It just was easier said then done.

152. My First Group Counseling Session

I've been going to the Palm Beach County Victims Services for 10 months now.  At first I had to go every other week.  If you remember I had PTSD after living through the stalking nightmare.  Now I go every other week.  I know that still seems like a lot, but it I really need to.

There are actually group sessions once a week at the down town courthouse.  People of all types of crimes, stalking, rape, physical abuse, etc. all attend these sessions.  My psychologist, Amber, asked me to go at least 8 months ago.  It's been impossible so far.  The timing just never worked with my job.

116. Mark Still Blames Me For Everything

I brought our home safe in to work today.  The dial is an electronic lock.  Mark had changed the combination so I couldn't get in.  I was quite sure there was nothing really in there, but decided I needed to check.

The guys said there was no way to open it without drilling it open.  What luck, we are a locksmith company.  So, Megan helped me put it in my car and I brought it in.

We decided to try every single combo we could before drilling: birthdays, anniversaries, etc.  We must have had 30 different codes to try.  The lock "locks you out" after 3 tries for 10 minutes.  The guys suggested I call Len and see if he had the combination.   If you remember, Mark had told Len how to break into our house the day after he was arrested.  The guys figured that maybe he gave Len the combination too.

75. Direct TV Bills

68. Palm Beach County Jail and Jet

Mark Walter - Mugshot

It was after midnight when Mark was booked in the Palm Beach County jail on Gun Club road.  I imagine he was exhausted.  If you listened to the recordings and/or read the transcripts from last night (while he was leaving messages harassing me and breaking his restraining order) he yawned and mentioned several times how tired he was.

If you remember me saying last night the judge had issued an $800,000 bail the night before.  When Mark went to his first appearance in front of the judge at the jail, his bail was revoked.  I believe the judge felt it was too dangerous for him to be out.  Not to mention, he threatened the North Palm Beach police.  I'm pretty sure they don't take that too lightly.

Mark was arrested for the following:

67. The Arrest and Karma

It was pretty quiet all day after court.  Everything was normal.  When I got home I saw that the phone as unplugged.  Mark had called.  Chris didn't want Matthew to hear any recordings in case Mark started to leave nasty messages on their home phone again.

Mark called Kristin's cell phone.  He left a horrific message on her recording.  He said that he was glad she wasn't his 'blood' child and only adopted.  He said that was the reason she was so fucked up in the head, because her biological father had butt fucked her when she was 4 years old.  Kristin, being Kristin, ignored it and wrote it off to his illness.  I was angry.

Even so, I understand she was under a lot of stress just like me.  So, we all sat down and had a nice dinner.  Around 8 we put Matty to bed.  Then Kristin and I watched a show.  Chris was in his office.  I kept my cell phone off too.  I didn't want to hear 'his ring' in case he started a tirade again.  And, because of that, I didn't hear the Sheriff call:

64. Did I Violate Your Restraining Order Love?

Other then Mark harassing the people I know, it remained quiet for me at least Friday the 8th.  That is until around 4:45 P.M.  My cell phone rang.  I had previously added a specific ring for Mark, so I would know not to accidentally answer it.  It was that ring.  It only rang one time and a message wasn't left.  I assumed the call was an accidental dial and decided not to start fretting just yet.

About 5 minutes later I got a Facebook message.  Wade said, "Diana, Mark is posting on his page."  Since I have blocked Mark I cannot see anything he writes.  The following was what Mark posted (note he changed the date of the post to February 6th, which is both of our birthdays):

61. Court Transcripts - Part 1 - Death Threats

I spent every minute yesterday bracing myself for what comes next.  Today I found out just what that was...

Death Threats, rape threats and other threats are highlighted in yellow.

Actual Court Transcripts

59. My Estranged Husband the Cyber Stalker

Mark calls my cell phone non-stop.  He also calls Kristin's house phone and her cell phone as well. We had to unplug the home phone so Matthew won't hear his vile messages. We also had to call block our work phones yesterday as he was calling every line non-stop.  After we put the block on, Mark called 911.  He told the police something had to be wrong because we were not picking up. When the police came we had to explain what was going on.  The officer told me there was nothing he could do and I should think about a no contact order.

When you are reading / listening to these, keep in mind I did not respond to him either by phone, email, or Facebook.

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 01, 2013 @ 8:30 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey, did my registration come in? Because, I have to go to Stuar.. Miami today.  And, uh I, I don't have a valid registration and you were going to fix that for me.  And, and I didn't hear back from ya.  So, can you call me please?  I need help. Thank you.

[recording ends]  

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 1, 2013 @ 3:23 PM
>> Recording Link <<

I suggest you unblock me from my company.   And, I suggest you don't try to use those credit cards, or you will be arrested.

[recording ends]  

58. And the Storm Starts Brewing

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 9:39 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey tomorrow's the 1st.  I need my rent.  So, I guess we'll do all of the key swapping when I get my rent check. Thank you.
 [recording ends]

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 10:06 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey, two things.  I got a prospective buyer for the building.  So, umm that's one thing.  The other thing is I need that $10,000 I gave you for your uhh father back, please. So... tomorrow should be a pretty good payday for me. Bye.
[recording ends]

57. The Calm Before the Storm

I have placed some (not the short ones) of the recording links with the transcripts.  The recordings open in a new window.  You cannot really 'feel' what he is saying without hearing 'how' he says it.

Mark Walter message on Diana Walter's cell phone
Wednesday, February 27, 2013 @ 12:04 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Ya know your spending $50,000 with the Republican Party.  You're running my business and my building into the ground.  You have a condition called Asbergers which prevents you from thinking clearly.  Umm.  You need medication.  And, I need to seize control of everything back.  So, I don't know what you are going to do honey.  I think you should go to an insane asylum.  I think that would be your best bet.  What do you think?  They can adjust your dosages.  And then, you know, you can uhh, get better.  Because we all just want you to get better honey.  We all just want you to get better.

56. And Why Would Tuesday Be Any Better?

I held my breath this morning to see what today would be like.  Imagine my surprise to get to work to this email after the abuse of yesterday:

55. No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

Monday was pretty busy at work.  Mark called a few times in the morning and sounded 'normal' - well, as normal as he can be.  He called to tell me he got his car back.  He also said he made a dermatology appointment for Thursday.  Most of the day was fine - until right before we closed.  Then, all of sudden all hell broke loose.

When I got the very first message, all I could think was OH NO!! Mr. Hyde showed up!!!!!

I had over 30 phone calls from him today and many voice messages.

54. Trying to Reach Out

A few days have gone by and all has been very quiet.  When that happens I worry.  I know you are all shaking your head at me.  But, one of the major symptoms of bipolar disorder is manic depression.  That's when I start to worry.  When he is quiet for days on in I start to wonder....

I also feel bad because I know he is all alone, not working and has no money, just credit cards.  Sure, he has all of those coins that he has bought on Ebay.  In fact, he has been paying people with them and getting ripped off.  But, still he has no way to get food without a credit card.  I do pay all of the bills for the house still. 

53. Brotherly Love

You probably ask yourself how I can see some of the emails that I see.  That's because Mark will email other people and then somewhere along the line add me to the conversation.  When he does it allows me to see everything else that was said in the conversation.

The following email was from Mark's brother Bruce.  As you can tell, he isn't very happy:

52. Post Vday Notes & FPL Bills

So, I waited until today to respond to his Valentines emails.  I thought long and hard about writing him.  I don't know why I just don't ignore him.

After thinking, writing and re-writing, below is what I finally came up with.

51. Happy Valentines Day, I Guess

Nothing else to see here...move along...

50. CucKoOo CoooOOOooo

I should have kept my mouth shut yesterday.  I criticized his listing of the house.  Yes, it was completely false.  But, I know better then to say anything.

I also did not respond to his request for a date night until the morning, so that also gave him ammunition to go a bit crazy.  Unfortunately, that's exactly what happened.

49. Procrastination...

Procrastination is a crime

It only leads to sorry

I can stop it anytime

I think I will tomorrow...

No.  I didn't fall off the face of the earth.  No.  Mark did not shoot me.  I just haven't felt like writing.  I go through stages.  I think about writing, then I think better of it.  I realize I have to relive everything and sometimes I just don't want to.  So, I just don't write.

Things have been a bit more quiet.  Sure, I had the usual phone calls, but mostly Mark has left me alone.   Today he wanted to update me on our house, which he has put on Zillow and has totally misrepresented our house:

47. You've Been Served...

I didn't sleep well last night as usual.  I actually had several nightmares throughout the night.  I couldn't stop thinking about what would happen once Mark was served his divorce papers.  Trust me, he has no clue that this is coming.

Oh sure, he was sitting there when his psychiatrist 'told me to file'.  And, I have no doubts his brother called him after Kristin talked to him and told him I was planning to file.  But, after receiving Facebook messages like this on Tuesday, it makes me believe he doesn't think it will happen: