145. A Conversation With The States Attorney

The status hearing to reschedule Mark's trial is scheduled for Friday.

Jenica, the states attorney, called me today. She had a lot to tell me.  She said that she spoke with the Public Defender on Tuesday.  The conversation was both enlightening and scary at the same time,

The first thing the public defender told Jenica was will be requesting that Mark be granted phone privileges again - with the exception of me and the guys at my work.

144. Today Is My Dad's 84th Birthday

Today is my dad's 84th birthday. I wish I could say he is doing better, but he is still anxious and depressed.  He has a doctors appoint for the sleep center in 3 days.  I only hope they can help,

143. I Learned So Much At Counseling Today

My counseling appointment with Amber was wonderful today.  When I first got there I had all kinds of mixed emotions.  It's so hard to explain to people all of the feelings I have, but Amber really understands.

Every single day I feel as though I am taking a step forward.  Yet, I am always conflicted about all of the feelings I have.  Is it strange that I feel guilty for being happy?  Is it wrong that I don't miss Mark at all?  We were together for 18 years.  Should I feel bad in some way?  And, why is it I feel so content now being all by myself.  I have no desire at all to date, or be in any type of relationship.  I actually wake up feeling happy even though there is still so much conflict in my life.

142. Thanksgiving 2013 and One Year Later

It was one year ago today that I left Mark.  It's funny how over 8 months of counseling and time can change you.

A year ago I was frightened, angry and horribly confused.  A year ago I still owned my home, had my cat, my parrot Little Muffin was still alive and Mark was still a free man.

141. Guess What? Mark Is Competent To Stand Trial...Duh

Today was Mark's competency hearing.  He had been interviewed by two different psychologists in the past week.  Both of them got on the stand and testified that Mark was definitely competent to stand trial.  But, we all knew that.  You have to be drooling all over yourself, or caught running naked in the streets not to be found competent.

The trial has been delayed three times now.  At today's hearing the Judge set December 12th to have a hearing to set the new trial date.  More delays. He's been in jail for 8 month and still no trial. It's maddening.

140. Public Defender Requests A Competency Hearing

Chris, told me that the public defender contacted my daughter Kristin yesterday. They talked for about an hour.

Chris said from what Kristin told him that it sounds like they're going to try for an insanity defense, or that Mark is mentally incompetent.  The public defender is asking for a competency hearing.

139. My Dad Is Not Well

Sometimes when you think life is finally getting better and you can handle anything that comes along something happens to turn your world upside down,

My sister told me that my dad has been having problems ever since Paula had her heart attack in August.  He has been anxious and can't sleep. He is also in his 80's and depression is very common.