81. Kristin Talked About Her Visit With Mark

Kristin actually talked to me for the first time today about her visit with Mark on Saturday. She was the one that started the conversation, so I guess she wanted to talk about it.  She told me all about going to see him.

She also admitted that it's very hard on her, because it seems like every man that was her "dad" has verbally abused her. She seem to want so much for him to be okay, for her daddy to be okay.

Kristin told me Mark is in the senior area. So, it's pretty safe.  He told her to tell me, " Tell your mom I love & miss her."  She isn't supposed to do that.  I let this time slide, because it's the first time she has talked to me about him.

74. Mental Abuse and Me

Today was my appointment with my counselor, Amber, with the Victim's Services Unit.  I must say I really like her.  For the first time I feel like someone really understands what is in my heart and my head.

Amber makes me think about a lot of things in a different way.  For instance, I was all for moving to Loxahatchee, but it wasn't even a couple of months that we lived there that Mark went wildly manic the first time in 2003.  In the past ten years following our move I have allowed myself to be alienated from my family.