70. Sunny Forecast Turns to Stormy

My day started out so great. Started off feeling on top of the world. It was my youngest Megan's 29th birthday.  She had to work.  So, I decided to treat myself instead.

I had an appointment to go and get my hair cut.  In the middle of my appointment, Len called (the one that took Jet and Mark) called my cell.. He said "We have some things to talk about," so I told him I'd have to call back later.

When I was done with my hair I went to 2 gun places. Neither had the gun Dixie told me about. Then I asked about lessons. He said 1 class is $50 for 1 hour, plus gun rental if you don't have one, plus the cost of the range. I left with nothing. It was very disheartening.

65. No. It's Not Over...Yet..

Interestingly enough, Mark did as he has previously done and went completely silent again for the last two days. As I said before, that is as terrifying as when he is calling.  Maybe even more.  When he doesn't call I don't know where he is.

On Saturday the 9th, I had driven out to the Loxahatchee Sheriff's department to explain what was going on.  I told them to contact the North Palm Beach police.  They could explain about the probable cause and go pick Mark up, right?  Wrong.  After an hour of waiting for the Sheriff's to show up the main guy was rude and pretty condescending to me.  I mean, after all, Mark never actually laid a hand on me, right?  What was I worrying about?   I realized this wasn't going to be a quick arrest.

Now it is Monday.  I met with my legal aide attorney, Kathyrn, this morning at 9 AM.  She is who was assigned to me by the Domestic Violence Victims Unit to help me with my case and to get the transcripts ready for the judge.  It took nine hours just for her to go through the recordings. Kathyrn said that this was the longest intake she had ever done in her career.  She was also visibly disgusted  and disturbed by what she was hearing.

59. My Estranged Husband the Cyber Stalker

Mark calls my cell phone non-stop.  He also calls Kristin's house phone and her cell phone as well. We had to unplug the home phone so Matthew won't hear his vile messages. We also had to call block our work phones yesterday as he was calling every line non-stop.  After we put the block on, Mark called 911.  He told the police something had to be wrong because we were not picking up. When the police came we had to explain what was going on.  The officer told me there was nothing he could do and I should think about a no contact order.

When you are reading / listening to these, keep in mind I did not respond to him either by phone, email, or Facebook.

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 01, 2013 @ 8:30 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey, did my registration come in? Because, I have to go to Stuar.. Miami today.  And, uh I, I don't have a valid registration and you were going to fix that for me.  And, and I didn't hear back from ya.  So, can you call me please?  I need help. Thank you.

[recording ends]  

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 1, 2013 @ 3:23 PM
>> Recording Link <<

I suggest you unblock me from my company.   And, I suggest you don't try to use those credit cards, or you will be arrested.

[recording ends]  

58. And the Storm Starts Brewing

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 9:39 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey tomorrow's the 1st.  I need my rent.  So, I guess we'll do all of the key swapping when I get my rent check. Thank you.
 [recording ends]

Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 10:06 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Hey, two things.  I got a prospective buyer for the building.  So, umm that's one thing.  The other thing is I need that $10,000 I gave you for your uhh father back, please. So... tomorrow should be a pretty good payday for me. Bye.
[recording ends]

57. The Calm Before the Storm

I have placed some (not the short ones) of the recording links with the transcripts.  The recordings open in a new window.  You cannot really 'feel' what he is saying without hearing 'how' he says it.

Mark Walter message on Diana Walter's cell phone
Wednesday, February 27, 2013 @ 12:04 AM
>> Recording Link <<

Ya know your spending $50,000 with the Republican Party.  You're running my business and my building into the ground.  You have a condition called Asbergers which prevents you from thinking clearly.  Umm.  You need medication.  And, I need to seize control of everything back.  So, I don't know what you are going to do honey.  I think you should go to an insane asylum.  I think that would be your best bet.  What do you think?  They can adjust your dosages.  And then, you know, you can uhh, get better.  Because we all just want you to get better honey.  We all just want you to get better.

56. And Why Would Tuesday Be Any Better?

I held my breath this morning to see what today would be like.  Imagine my surprise to get to work to this email after the abuse of yesterday:

35. Wednesday - Another Day Another Nightmare

I haven't written in awhile, so none of you know about Mark's "new business" he is starting, 1141 Gold and Pawn (or something like that).  Yes, he has been spending thousands of dollars buying gold coins via EBAY.

He removed me from his Discover account so I couldn't see what he is doing.  He has also cashed out all of his life insurance policies as well.  I am sure I haven't mentioned that he is also buying a brand new Corvette. He says, "He deserves it."  He tried to get me to co-sign for it last Friday when he went to the Credit Union for a loan.  I refused. They refused him credit, so he is very angry with me.  My understanding is he is having it delivered C.O.D.  It's going to be interesting to see what happens next.  He has no money to pay for it.

32.The Longest Night From Hell (Part 2)

Friday Evening, December 28, 2012

As I stated in The Longest Day From Hell (Part 1), I was incredibly exhausted and couldn't wait to just go home and not think anymore.

My friend Dixie called me as I was driving home.  When I answered the phone she said, "Diana, are you OK???"  I immediately responded, "Did Mark do something?"  If you remember, Dixie was the one that called me the first morning after I left Mark.  She was the one that informed me he had killed my parrot.  She told me that Mark had contacted Wade on Facebook (Dixie, Wade and I are BFF's on Facebook - yes I know that sounds silly, but we are).

29. Christmas 2012 - The Grinch Who Stole Christmas (Part 2)

If you decided to venture in to the darkness and read this page get some Pepto Bismol ready.  Keep in mind what you are about to read was happening all throughout the day.  Facebook messages and text messages show up on my phone.  However, quite a bit of what happened today I didn't see until much later as I had turned my phone off to keep my sanity.

21. A Not So Happy Saturday Evening (Part 2)

Saturday Evening, December 15, 2012

As I previously stated, I have made the conscience decision not to talk to Mark until he goes back to the psychiatrist.  I kept my phone off all day today.  If you read about earlier today then you know I had a wonderful, calm, sweet day with my kids.

I went to write in my blog tonight.  I also pulled up Facebook to chat with Dixie and Wade.  I saw I had a ton of messages from Mark: 

19. Slowly Pulling Myself Out of the Abyss

Friday, December 14, 2012

Today was incredibly busy at work as the entire week had been.  I did not sleep well last night after my ordeal with Mark.  I woke up at least 3 times.  My nerves are definitely shot.  I don't know how to describe how I feel expect to say that my entire body feels like a large open wound that hurts all of the time.  Sometimes I can get used to it.  Most of the time I can't.  Sometimes I burst out in tears at the most inappropriate times.  I have had to excuse myself to customers far too often in the past week.  Today was no exception.  I cried most of the day.

18. Remote Access, Throwing Change and Comcast Caring...

Thursday, December 13, 2012

I didn't feel like writing yesterday.  It isn't that 'something' hasn't happened.    It's just when I write, I have to relive the events of that day.  It is so very tiring and frustrating to do this. Other times it is a release just to make sure I remember everything that happened. Sometimes I write and just don't publish until later.  I guess that's why I am writing today.  I do not want to forget what happened tonight.

16. The Doctor is In

Monday, December 10, 2012

This week at work is incredibly busy.  We are booked almost every single day.  Chris and Pat have a huge access control job to work on.  Joe is the only technician I have available to send on jobs, since Mark is out still.

There was a CD that came in the mail this morning.  It has Mark's name as the addressee, but all of our packages have his name.  There was no return address on the envelope.  There was no invoice.  I opened it and inside the CD sticker said, "PDF converter professional 8."  I had no idea what this was for. I Googled the name and found out it costs anywhere from $80 to $100.

14. What Could Possibly Go Wrong Today?

Saturday, December 8, 2012

I was up pretty late Friday night writing. I slept until about 9 A.M.  When I got up I was wrestling with whether I should go out to the house to see him today.  After the fiasco of last night I wasn't sure I wanted to put myself through that.  I thought about it for awhile.  Finally the guilt took over.  I had made a promise.  I had told him I would be there by noon and we could go to lunch.  If I didn't keep my promise I knew he would call me a liar.  I am pretty used to being called that now.

10. He Murdered My Parrot

He murdered my 8 year old parrot.

8. Free..But NOW What?

Saturday, December 1

I received a text message from Dixie at 10:00 in the morning:

DIANA... DO NOT GO HOME... Mark is NOT OK!

Then on Facebook she said this:

He KILLED your bird. He admitted it.

She then forwarded me their Facebook Chat:

6. To Stay or Not to Stay... Is that REALLY a Question?

So much has happened since I wrote last.  I just haven't had the energy to write.  I almost just decided to give up this blog. After all, it is getting pretty repetitive.  However, I felt I needed to continue, because of what happened in the past week.

Wednesday, 11/28/2012 

Today was pretty much a 'normal' day.  Well, it was what is normal in my world.  I went to work and Mark was on the road most of the day.  When he isn't there it makes it much easier.  I actually hate going home because I know what I am in for at night.  So, I had been staying at work later and going to bed earlier.

1. Rainy Days & Mondays - Except it's Thursday

I have been thinking about starting a blog for a long time.  I just never bothered because, I mean, who would care?  Today I finally decided that I do.  I need to write down my feelings.

I am upset right now. People say you shouldn't write when you are upset.  I probably shouldn't be.  But, I just need to get my feelings out.

Mark and I are fighting again.  Mark is drinking again.  Mark doesn't like me again. Oh sure, he says, "I love you."  I am pretty sure he really does.  But, I am also quite sure he doesn't like me.  And, to be quite honest, I'm pretty sure I don't like him anymore.