Life with an alcoholic, addict, bi-polar / psychotic (ex) spouse. Dealing with the manic, erratic, terrifying behavior, the sadness and decisions to be made to keep sane. My decision was to leave before he completely lost his mind.
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Showing posts with label mania. Show all posts
Saturday, March 23, 2013
75. Direct TV Bills
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Thursday, March 14, 2013
68. Palm Beach County Jail and Jet
Mark Walter - Mugshot
It was after midnight when Mark was booked in the Palm Beach County jail on Gun Club road. I imagine he was exhausted. If you listened to the recordings and/or read the transcripts from last night (while he was leaving messages harassing me and breaking his restraining order) he yawned and mentioned several times how tired he was.
If you remember me saying last night the judge had issued an $800,000 bail the night before. When Mark went to his first appearance in front of the judge at the jail, his bail was revoked. I believe the judge felt it was too dangerous for him to be out. Not to mention, he threatened the North Palm Beach police. I'm pretty sure they don't take that too lightly.
Mark was arrested for the following:
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Monday, March 11, 2013
65. No. It's Not Over...Yet..
Interestingly enough, Mark did as he has previously done and went completely silent again for the last two days. As I said before, that is as terrifying as when he is calling. Maybe even more. When he doesn't call I don't know where he is.
On Saturday the 9th, I had driven out to the Loxahatchee Sheriff's department to explain what was going on. I told them to contact the North Palm Beach police. They could explain about the probable cause and go pick Mark up, right? Wrong. After an hour of waiting for the Sheriff's to show up the main guy was rude and pretty condescending to me. I mean, after all, Mark never actually laid a hand on me, right? What was I worrying about? I realized this wasn't going to be a quick arrest.
Now it is Monday. I met with my legal aide attorney, Kathyrn, this morning at 9 AM. She is who was assigned to me by the Domestic Violence Victims Unit to help me with my case and to get the transcripts ready for the judge. It took nine hours just for her to go through the recordings. Kathyrn said that this was the longest intake she had ever done in her career. She was also visibly disgusted and disturbed by what she was hearing.
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Friday, March 8, 2013
64. Did I Violate Your Restraining Order Love?
Other then Mark harassing the people I know, it remained quiet for me at least Friday the 8th. That is until around 4:45 P.M. My cell phone rang. I had previously added a specific ring for Mark, so I would know not to accidentally answer it. It was that ring. It only rang one time and a message wasn't left. I assumed the call was an accidental dial and decided not to start fretting just yet.
About 5 minutes later I got a Facebook message. Wade said, "Diana, Mark is posting on his page." Since I have blocked Mark I cannot see anything he writes. The following was what Mark posted (note he changed the date of the post to February 6th, which is both of our birthdays):
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Thursday, March 7, 2013
63. Waiting, Wondering, Worrying
You are probably wondering what happened after I received my temporary restraining order. Ironically, I personally did not receive a single phone call or email for four straight days after his tirade of death threats on the 3rd. It was quiet, too quiet, which made my stress level soar. At least when he was calling from the house I knew exactly where he was. When he doesn't call I have to look over my shoulder every second.
The Sheriff's office called me on Wednesday the 6th to let me know they had 'served' the restraining order to him at 8:50 A.M. Even after he was served I did not receive a single call or email. I began to wonder maybe he had blacked out? Did he even realize what he had done? Did I over-react? NO, I know I didn't. It remained quiet until Thursday the 7th.
I cannot even begin to explain the stress that all of us have gone through; myself, my family, and my staff throughout all of these days. Mark had called all of the staff on the 3rd to say, "You're fired." They actually called me to find out if they still had a job. I told them to ignore Mark. That is easier said then done when he continued to call.
On Thursday thinks were no longer quiet. No, he didn't contact me in any way. However, he did contact my friends, family and business friends. Thursday night I received call after call from these people telling me that Mark had call to harass them. I guess since he knew he couldn't contact me he would attack those I knew and they would tell me about it. However, my restraining order is just for me only. It is true that he cannot harass me via a third party. But, he didn't call these people and ask them to call me, or even give me a message. He knew these people would call me without him having to say a word. It worked. All I could do is apologize to them.
The Sheriff's office called me on Wednesday the 6th to let me know they had 'served' the restraining order to him at 8:50 A.M. Even after he was served I did not receive a single call or email. I began to wonder maybe he had blacked out? Did he even realize what he had done? Did I over-react? NO, I know I didn't. It remained quiet until Thursday the 7th.
I cannot even begin to explain the stress that all of us have gone through; myself, my family, and my staff throughout all of these days. Mark had called all of the staff on the 3rd to say, "You're fired." They actually called me to find out if they still had a job. I told them to ignore Mark. That is easier said then done when he continued to call.
On Thursday thinks were no longer quiet. No, he didn't contact me in any way. However, he did contact my friends, family and business friends. Thursday night I received call after call from these people telling me that Mark had call to harass them. I guess since he knew he couldn't contact me he would attack those I knew and they would tell me about it. However, my restraining order is just for me only. It is true that he cannot harass me via a third party. But, he didn't call these people and ask them to call me, or even give me a message. He knew these people would call me without him having to say a word. It worked. All I could do is apologize to them.
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Sunday, March 3, 2013
61. Court Transcripts - Part 1 - Death Threats
I spent every minute yesterday bracing myself for what comes next. Today I found out just what that was...
Death Threats, rape threats and other threats are highlighted in yellow.
Actual Court Transcripts
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Saturday, March 2, 2013
60. Silence Is Very SCARY!
Saturday, March 2, 2013
I keep my cell phone off most of the time. Mark calls non-stop, as you can see from the previous days. He doesn't just call me, he calls the kids house and Kristin's cell phone as well. She turns her's off too and we had to unplug the house phone.
You would think I would be thrilled that on this day I did not receive a single phone call, text message, email or Facebook message. Instead, I felt my heart beating out of my chest.
When is it going to start again? What made him stop? He has said over and over he was going to come over. Is he on his way here?
I don't know what is more stressful, the constant harassment, or the silence...
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Friday, March 1, 2013
59. My Estranged Husband the Cyber Stalker
Mark calls my cell phone non-stop. He also calls Kristin's house phone and her cell phone as well. We had to unplug the home phone so Matthew won't hear his vile messages. We also had to call block our work phones yesterday as he was calling every line non-stop. After we put the block on, Mark called 911. He told the police something had to be wrong because we were not picking up. When the police came we had to explain what was going on. The officer told me there was nothing he could do and I should think about a no contact order.
When you are reading / listening to these, keep in mind I did not respond to him either by phone, email, or Facebook.
Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 01, 2013 @ 8:30 AM
>> Recording Link <<
Hey, did my registration come in? Because, I have to go to Stuar.. Miami today. And, uh I, I don't have a valid registration and you were going to fix that for me. And, and I didn't hear back from ya. So, can you call me please? I need help. Thank you.
[recording ends]
Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Friday, March 1, 2013 @ 3:23 PM
>> Recording Link <<
I suggest you unblock me from my company. And, I suggest you don't try to use those credit cards, or you will be arrested.
[recording ends]
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Thursday, February 28, 2013
58. And the Storm Starts Brewing
Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 9:39 AM
>> Recording Link <<
Hey tomorrow's the 1st. I need my rent. So, I guess we'll do all of the key swapping when I get my rent check. Thank you.
[recording ends]
Mark Walter messages to Diana Walter's cell phone
Thursday, February 28, 2013 @ 10:06 AM
>> Recording Link <<
Hey, two things. I got a prospective buyer for the building. So, umm that's one thing. The other thing is I need that $10,000 I gave you for your uhh father back, please. So... tomorrow should be a pretty good payday for me. Bye.
[recording ends]
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Wednesday, February 27, 2013
57. The Calm Before the Storm
I have placed some (not the short ones) of the recording links with the transcripts. The recordings open in a new window. You cannot really 'feel' what he is saying without hearing 'how' he says it.
Mark Walter message on Diana Walter's cell phone
Wednesday, February 27, 2013 @ 12:04 AM
>> Recording Link <<
Ya know your spending $50,000 with the Republican Party. You're running my business and my building into the ground. You have a condition called Asbergers which prevents you from thinking clearly. Umm. You need medication. And, I need to seize control of everything back. So, I don't know what you are going to do honey. I think you should go to an insane asylum. I think that would be your best bet. What do you think? They can adjust your dosages. And then, you know, you can uhh, get better. Because we all just want you to get better honey. We all just want you to get better.
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Monday, February 25, 2013
55. No Good Deed Goes Unpunished
Monday was pretty busy at work. Mark called a few times in the morning and sounded 'normal' - well, as normal as he can be. He called to tell me he got his car back. He also said he made a dermatology appointment for Thursday. Most of the day was fine - until right before we closed. Then, all of sudden all hell broke loose.
When I got the very first message, all I could think was OH NO!! Mr. Hyde showed up!!!!!
I had over 30 phone calls from him today and many voice messages.
When I got the very first message, all I could think was OH NO!! Mr. Hyde showed up!!!!!
I had over 30 phone calls from him today and many voice messages.
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Sunday, February 24, 2013
54. Trying to Reach Out
A few days have gone by and all has been very quiet. When that happens I worry. I know you are all shaking your head at me. But, one of the major symptoms of bipolar disorder is manic depression. That's when I start to worry. When he is quiet for days on in I start to wonder....
I also feel bad because I know he is all alone, not working and has no money, just credit cards. Sure, he has all of those coins that he has bought on Ebay. In fact, he has been paying people with them and getting ripped off. But, still he has no way to get food without a credit card. I do pay all of the bills for the house still.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
53. Brotherly Love
You probably ask yourself how I can see some of the emails that I see. That's because Mark will email other people and then somewhere along the line add me to the conversation. When he does it allows me to see everything else that was said in the conversation.
The following email was from Mark's brother Bruce. As you can tell, he isn't very happy:
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Wednesday, February 13, 2013
50. CucKoOo CoooOOOooo
I should have kept my mouth shut yesterday. I criticized his listing of the house. Yes, it was completely false. But, I know better then to say anything.
I also did not respond to his request for a date night until the morning, so that also gave him ammunition to go a bit crazy. Unfortunately, that's exactly what happened.
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Tuesday, February 12, 2013
49. Procrastination...
Procrastination is a crime
It only leads to sorry
I can stop it anytime
I think I will tomorrow...
No. I didn't fall off the face of the earth. No. Mark did not shoot me. I just haven't felt like writing. I go through stages. I think about writing, then I think better of it. I realize I have to relive everything and sometimes I just don't want to. So, I just don't write.
Things have been a bit more quiet. Sure, I had the usual phone calls, but mostly Mark has left me alone. Today he wanted to update me on our house, which he has put on Zillow and has totally misrepresented our house:
Thursday, January 31, 2013
46. Superwoman, Packing and Storing
I had planned for a week to go to my house on Thursday to get as much as I could before Mark was 'served.' So, on Tuesday I rented a 5x10 storage shed. They had a special that gave you a truck with your first rental for free. I was happy about the free rental. I need to save money wherever I can right now.
I had not told Mark ahead of time that Megan and I were coming out. On Wednesday, the before we were scheduled to go there I started receiving emails from Mark:
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Sunday, January 27, 2013
44. And the Debt Keeps Right On Building!
I spent a lot of Saturday and Sunday trying to get documents ready for the attorney on Monday. She had told me the more I can give to her the less it will cost me. I am doing my best to get as much as I can.
Chris, Kristin and Matthew came to visit me yesterday. It was nice to see them. Later I went over to the shop to print out more information. Mark called me and asked if I wanted to go to dinner. I told him I couldn't. It seems he had Paulie (the rip off) over again, even after I told Paulie to stay away from my house. I saw that Mark had written him a check for $1,000 our of our checking account. I guess I will have to stop payment on all of our checks now.
Chris, Kristin and Matthew came to visit me yesterday. It was nice to see them. Later I went over to the shop to print out more information. Mark called me and asked if I wanted to go to dinner. I told him I couldn't. It seems he had Paulie (the rip off) over again, even after I told Paulie to stay away from my house. I saw that Mark had written him a check for $1,000 our of our checking account. I guess I will have to stop payment on all of our checks now.
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Friday, January 25, 2013
43. The Beginning of the End...
Chris's mom left today to fly to Tucson. His sister is visiting there, so she is meeting her and her husband for a few days before they all fly back to Australia. Chris came in later after driving her to the Ft. Lauderdale airport.
Mark's rescheduled psychiatrist appointment was today. I told myself this one is "make or break." I wanted to see if he could be put on disability. I kind of assumed he would call me and tell me that he cancelled it again. Instead, he called me to tell me that he needed a ride.
Remember his car isn't running, he still doesn't have his drivers license, and his work van probably wouldn't make it without breaking down. Honestly, I didn't even want him to try to drive his van. If he were to get into an accident in the All-Safe van we most likely would be sued. So, like the great little enabler that I am I agreed to drive out there. I told him I would be there by 12:45ish. His appointment was at 1:30.
Mark's rescheduled psychiatrist appointment was today. I told myself this one is "make or break." I wanted to see if he could be put on disability. I kind of assumed he would call me and tell me that he cancelled it again. Instead, he called me to tell me that he needed a ride.
Remember his car isn't running, he still doesn't have his drivers license, and his work van probably wouldn't make it without breaking down. Honestly, I didn't even want him to try to drive his van. If he were to get into an accident in the All-Safe van we most likely would be sued. So, like the great little enabler that I am I agreed to drive out there. I told him I would be there by 12:45ish. His appointment was at 1:30.
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Thursday, January 24, 2013
42. Coin Depot - The Non-Existent Company
You have previously heard me talk about Mark's "new company" he started called, 1141 N. Ocean Inc.Coin Depot. Granted, this is not a 'real' company. It is just a Face Book page he made to justify him spending thousand upon thousands of dollars on the Discover Card to buy Gold Coins: https://www.facebook.com/1141NOceanIncCoinDepot
I also explained that Mark removed me from Discover. I cannot see what he has bought. I have no control on how much he spends. I can only hope that since I am not on the account that I am not responsible for all of this debt. He has all of the coins. However, since he decided to give me his password, I took the liberty of logging in as him and copied all of the EBAY posts:
I also explained that Mark removed me from Discover. I cannot see what he has bought. I have no control on how much he spends. I can only hope that since I am not on the account that I am not responsible for all of this debt. He has all of the coins. However, since he decided to give me his password, I took the liberty of logging in as him and copied all of the EBAY posts:
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Wednesday, January 23, 2013
41. Cars and How Not to Blow Them Up
Chris told him to make sure to go have a mechanic check it all out before or after he bought it. You just never know what you are getting and that would be the safe and smart thing to do. Mark was already on the downhill spiral at this point. He never had the car checked out.
Mark called me around 11:30 AM on the 14th which was the day I went to meet my attorney for the very first time. He said he was coming in to the shop and would I like him to bring lunch. I told him no I had an appointment. He said he was going to call Chris to ask him if he wanted anything. It turns out he never showed up.
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